Saturday, July 3, 2010
All friendships are deceiving and worthless, Love is nothing but pain
this blog may be seem as a dead blog to a lot of people because i never update it for like dont know how many eternities already and so it has become a place for me to vent out my anger,complaints and so on as no one would be able to see it and so it wont offend anyone i guess?
Poly life started,no complaints uh. complain and no complain makes no difference anyway. i do wonder about some things, what you mean by a fair competition? equal chances? definitely not . your heart already go to him le, whats the point of you giving me chance in the first place then? you could have just given him 5 months and dont give me any. if talking about chances, the best chances are only 0.1% to 99.9% worse? dont need me to say also know is 0 to 100. this is only the sixth day and it felt that it has already been a very long time. 4 months plus to go,if your heart is already his then what for give me a chance?! what for give me false hope?! PITY?! i dont need your god damn pityness! I AM NOT THAT DESPERATE NOR WEAK! I AM NOT A BACK UP FOR YOU IF HE CHOOSE TO BE WITH HIS GF AT THE END OF THE 5 MONTHS!
From the way you do things already can see that you decision has already been made up,not only i feel that way,other people also! I AM NOT YOUR TOY! NOT A TOY FOR YOU TO TOY MY FEELINGS WITH! i have been saying for a long time asking you not to eat any cold stuffs when you are having your stomach pain but do you listen? NO YOU DONT! but when he asked you to not eat,you promised him that you wouldnt eat le. which damn fucking part of this is fair?! U TELL ME! if you have already made up your decision you can just tell me and by all means take back the chance you give me because i dont give a damn care about it anymore! though i really treasured this chance,haiz ... so if you have truly make up your decision le ... just tell me and stop wasting my precious time letting me think that there is hope when there is truly NO hope at all ! all the time that i spent with you were all happy times .. haiz .. i will remember them all de ...
as for YOU .. i seriously dont understand you anymore .. i dont know what in the world are you thinking anymore .. i treat you as my best friend,best buddy and this is what i got? forget it then ... i seriously feel like a fool,an idiot ... guess i really am 1 .. you broke up with her saying that you no longer have feelings for her and then left her heart broken .. then now when you have got yourself a gf le .. you asked her for another chance for her to give you time for you to go back to her ... what is this sia? you know that i like her and you still did this .. you said you no longer had feelings for her and yet you did this? you even got yourself a gf le and you still did this? ask yourself seriously ... are you human? by doing this,either 1 or both of them will be hurt by your actions,do you know that? is it fun toying with girls de feelings? i seriously dont understand you anymore,no longer understand you ... worst of all,she gave you chance,gave both of us 5 months .. i seriously have nothing to say .. so you are going to break with your current gf by the 5 months time and go back to her? haiz ... i really dont want to because of this lose the 4 years going to 5 years worth of friendship that we had but if worse come to worse ... then no choice ba ...
what my mum say is really right ... friends are useless because you dont know when they will stab you in the back or betray you .. you only can rely on yourself and no one else ... thanks mum .. i have learnt the lesson the hard way ...
by the end of the 5 months or if you have already made up your choice to be with him then i will give u both my blessing but i have 1 sentence to give to you and it is DONT COME CRYING TO ME WHEN HE DUMP YOU AGAIN BECAUSE I DONT GIVE A DAMN !
EterNity of LovE comes EterNity of PaiN
LASTLY,Happy Birthday Samantha MUMMY! stay happy always,stay chio always,stay cute always AND lastly ~ stay BLACK always :) hahaha,happy birthday!
with this i shall end my post .. a long one to be exact till next time .. its been great thrashing all this stuffs out off my chest because its quite hard for me to be relaxed because of all this stuffs .. bb :)
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