Saturday, July 31, 2010
I think that the next time i will go back is teacher's day le ba ... though i have time to go back and during YOG damn free ... i so called want to go back but ... the possibility of seeing you and him just make me feel that I'm just going to kill myself by going back ...
There's not going to be a title for today's post ...
Ending my post with a song which i found to be very nice and meaningful :)
Resounding in the distant sky, My prayers turn into miracles
My flowing teardrops melt into the deep blue hues of the late night sky
I met with the warmth which eagerly enveloped me
Pure as snow
Your thoroughly honest words
Moved me when i was bound with steel wings
Each time you hurt me,i can become kinder
I only want to protect your smile to the very end
That's my only wish
Transcending time,you are my angel of light
Who fully accepted my mournful memories
The eternal blaze that ignited in my chest that day
Will break free from the deep darkness and open the door to freedom ...
We'll confidently stride towards the endless future
Posted at 2:50 PM
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Love is nothing but a vocabulary that only can be found in a dictionary
Happy Birthday :)
Well i updated in the end cause you asked me if i got update or not so yea here i am updating .. Happy Birthday once again :)
Tomorrow have two presentation .. hope both goes well :( if not i am so dead .. haiz .. ok,i am very tired liao .. now to head off to bed .. this is a very short post i guess? lol
Nights ~ :)
Posted at 10:37 PM
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Silence Is Golden ...
Phone please stay silent forever :) just stay silent :) no more smses :) no more ...
That is the best ...
Posted at 10:04 PM
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Tired ...
Going to blog a short post before i head to dreamland to meet *coughs* don't anyhow think or say .. i still love her and only love her :)
Going to be her birthday soon ... wonder what i should do ... well ... nothing i guess ... well tomorrow maybe going back WGS :) hahaha ..
School is boring as always but no complains ~ :( when was school ever fun? haha .. tired till almost fall asleep in class :) going to have 3 presentation in a row soon,hope can pass all with flying colours especially CRS :) haha
K .. too tired le,time to head to dreamland :) nights all :) sweet dreams ~ :)
Posted at 10:21 PM
Monday, July 26, 2010
Trying Hard To Laugh Like There's No Tomorrow But Paining To Die Like Hell Down Below ...
Only one word to say
EMO !
Laughed like an idiot when watching those funny japanese prank video but after its finish its back to being my EMO self again ...
Haiz ....
Posted at 10:20 PM
Sunday, July 25, 2010
No Happiness Can Measure To The Happiness That I Can Be With YOU ...
The above photos are taken during the trip i went to Sentosa Resort world and spent a night there .. well it was quite an enjoyable one :) haha .. the food there was quite exp uh but what do you expect? it's sentosa? hahaha :) even the hotel there one rm is around 200 plus :P LOL ~ might be a bit crazy im a Singaporean and yet i so nothing do go own country de hotel to spend a night but it was a nice experience :) never sleep in own country de hotel before :) should try :) hahaha
Watched voyage de la vie at the Sentosa Resort :) was a very nice show :) hahahaha .. tickets at 60 plus :) not advertising but it's really nice :) parents went casino while cousins and i went to eat :) ate at a japanese restaurant which i totally already forgot the name :) haha :P
Didn't sleep a lot last night watched tv till around 2 plus if i am not wrong then sleep dao 7 plus nia? haha :) after that once again went to eat breakfast at toast box while parents went to casino again for their breakfast :) lol ..
After that went to universal studio :) fun ~ hahahaha .. lazy say so much :P haha .. After that home sweet home :) time for me to get my sleep le if not tomorrow gg in school le :) haha ~ :) only regret is never go the coffee bean there to eat cake and drink the drinks there :( will do that next time :) till then :) cya .. ending with some words :)
Friends Working Together Will Hopes And Dreams Then Be Achieved
By Reaching Out For The Endless Sky Will Only Our Destiny Be Derived
Have The Courage And We Will Even Try
It's About Never Giving Up
So Hold Your Head Up
And We Will Carry On
:)
I Love YOU ! i realise that last night .. no matter what i won't give up de .. be it waiting for eternity but for that hope of lasting a day .. a month .. a year .. it is worth it because it's for you :) i love u :)
Posted at 9:51 PM
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Some comments are better kept to yourself :)
It's about you
It's about me
It's about hope
It's about dreams
It's about friends that work together
To claim their destiny
It's about reaching for the sky
Find the courage and we will even try
It's about never giving up
So hold your head up
And we will carry on ...
Some random lyrics ~ haha
Well to people who visit my blog uh .. if you don't like whatever i write or whatever :) human are clever enough to install a red X button on the top right hand corner of the which ever browser you use or just press the small x button on the tab and close it uh ... i believe god instilled enough intelligence in you to just do a simple task? lol if god didn't then i am teaching you now :)
You don't have to see if you don't like it but if you want to see then don't talk so much uh especially about life ~ No one has the right to control other people de life and i don't think you have the right to say about mine either :) constructive comments are always welcomed but such comments like the ones you said .. well .. keep them to yourself then :) No one knows everything about life let alone you :) So please don't come and embarrass yourself? haha ..
Well off the sentosa resort later and spending the night there :) hope will have fun and cya ~ ending my post :)
Posted at 1:38 PM
Friday, July 23, 2010
Every time go see YOUR blog confirm is saying about you and your Mr J -.- ... see dao also sian ... see dao more emo -.- ... so from now on i don't want go see liao ... see liao only kill myself ... -.-
Posted at 10:51 PM
Romance Movie Aren't Really My Cup Of Tea For The Time Being ... :)
Today got back essay ... i totally screw it -.- i got a big fat D for it .. -.- its the god damn first time i got D for any essay especially argumentative essay ... -.- pathetic lor -.- spelling error, grammar error all over the place .. Wtf la -.- argh ! have to buck up abit liao ...
Well ... as the title stated .. romance movie aren't really my type of movie that i should be watching now .. watched old cow eat tender grass (direct translation from Chinese) well,not a really bad movie nor is a good one either ... watched liao jitao emo -.- zzzz sia ... thought this thought there ... totally idiot -.- well .. kinda still emoing uh ... haiz ... thoughts running all over the place .. well wasted ten dollar making my MT3 DX Plus car into the colour of the national flag of Singapore to celebrate the upcoming national day ... lol ...
Shall continue my emoing i guess? hahaha ... watched some more shows to further emo myself ... all so touching de ... haiz ... idiot idiot -.- well,ending my post till then cya ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :)
Posted at 7:31 PM
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Despite HIM Despite YOU .. Despite Everything I Love YOU ...
Well .. suddenly have the so called urge to update cause i make my decision le :) i will wait .. wait dao the year 2010 end for YOU cause i love u / Ngo oiy ney a / 我爱你 / Aishiteru or Anata ga daisuki desu and last but not least your favourite language Sarang Heyo or Nanun tangshinul sarang hamnida ... if by end still like this then .. wait for it to end first then say ba ...
Well .. still in the midst of deciding to go for DMLS day tomorrow to perform or not ... haiz .. what to do .. what to do ... go DMLS day or go back to WGS? go where arh go where? I dont know ... I dont know ... haiz ... Will YOU tell me? :)
Ending my post :) Despite Him Despite YOU .. Despite everything there is still LOVE for YOU because of such words I love YOU ..
Posted at 8:33 PM
Sunday, July 18, 2010
what to do ... what to do ...
well .. i seriously dont know what to do uh ... since she is so happy with him now,i still wait for her for what? why dont i just give her the blessing? i love her so? she loves him,idk she likes me or not -.- not that it matters or anything ...
Well .. i hope to find the answer soon .. i hope i will ..
I think i wont update for some time i guess? maybe in a week or so i will be back ba with the answers also :)
So in a weeks time i will update again :)
With this,i end .. cya in a weeks time :)
Posted at 8:08 PM
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Some people seriously should not be entitled to the term 'FRIENDS' ( Not refering to anyone )
well .. today is a bored day at home .. nothing much to do also ~ lol .. haha .. well .. i won't elaborate much on my title .. no meaning also to elaborate .. it won't changed anything ..
I seriously don't know what to update so shall make it a short one then :) i cannot decide my mind on something iphone 3gs or iphone 4g? heard that iphone 4g has some problems? what kok yong say is right uh .. iphone 4 already out,why i still go buy iphone 3gs? might as well buy iphone 4 better .. looking at iphone 4,i gt tempted uh .. LOL ..
I think the final vote will b decided on the pricing and the iphone 4g de problem ba .. if iphone 4 de price is around 200 to 300 plus? i will ask my dad buy for me but if over is around 300 plus to 400 plus,i will buy myself using my own money cause working in yog break so can de :) if above then that,sad to say :) just iphone 3gs 32gb de ba :) haha .. even if buy iphone 4g also is buy 16gb de :) 32gb de confirm exp dao ~ haha ..
If iphone 4g still encounter the reception problem then i might as well make do with iphone 3gs dao iphone 4gs or newer iphone out then i buy them ba :) hahaha ~ all will be decided on my birthday :)
The Sixth day ...
ending my post :) cya ~
Posted at 4:40 PM
Friday, July 16, 2010
Your little words can just trigger my eyes and tears fly sky high ...
Today was quite an enjoyable day i guess? hahahahahaha ... went to school as usual? after that had meeting ~ haha
Met up with Wj at dover and then off we go to seoul garden for MY treat ~ LOL .. im so BROKE ! haha .. eat halfway bryan they all also came to seoul garden eat which i thought was canceled so was abit surprised to see them there .. haha ..
JiaJia came and sit beside me and drank my lemon tea,drink dao no more .. eeew her saliva ~ LOL .. more like took .. lol .. drink liao ask her refill she go refill then come back give me peach tea ~ NICE ONE ! i say ice lemon tea become peach tea ~ lol !
Wj ! you seriously cannot cook sia ! bu shi cook dao burnt jiu shi not cooked ! LOL ! jialat la! my stomach tonight gg liao ~ haha ..
JiaJia came back again ~ this time take my bag and see whats inside,very nice to see arh?! inspect my bag! TSK! then hug it like siao ~
After that eat my cookie ice cream halfway ~ Guess who come back again sia?! she came back jitao want eat the ice cream that i was eating halfway ~ again took away from me ~ LOL .. YOU hor ! hahaha .. eat eat eat ~ say nice dao eat finish liao go take somemore ~ got flu and cough still eat ice cream ! ~ tsktsk! Somemore still hit me sia ! TSK!
She half eat half tell me STUFFS ~ TOO long liao .. lazy type :) hahahaha ~
After that sit side by side for quite some time dont know talk about what then bryan call say want go liao then all went home ~ haha ..
YOU HOR ! take care of yourself hor ~ got flu and cough still eat ice cream and drink cold drink and eat chicken like nothing wrong ! tsktsk! must take care of yourself ! your mummy doctor leh ! aiyo! dont make me worry ma! haha :)
k la ~ end my post liao .. im so full now and smelling like seoul garden ~ hahaha ~ hope i dont burst :) till next time ~
Posted at 5:55 PM
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Little by little, I am falling in love with You ...
going to be a short post today cause i totally don't know what to update for today uh ...
Today is totally a sian day .. stupid teacher release so late then cannot go back WGS ... never mind uh .. lai ri fang chang .. still got chance de .. not like i dying .. haha ..
Today decided not to go for the rehearsal for DMLS day .. never mind uh .. they didn't do much either so no big deal :) haha .. tomorrow not going for another rehearsal :) decided to pon it :) hahahahahaha! im so guai ... :) going with Wj to go seoul garden eat dao shuang :) hahaha and its my treat -.- cause i lose finals de bet .. oh well .. never mind ~ hahaha .. tomorrow sure going to eat dao i burst or what so ever :) hahahahahahaha ...
So many hahahaha in my post but in reality im not even laughing or smiling or happy .. haha :)
Ending my short post uh .. the 4th day le .. im still waiting for you cause of that three words i love you :)
Posted at 5:54 PM
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
There Is No Such Thing As EterNity In This World ~
I am back once again not blogging for SOMEONE de sake but for my own ..
Today was a short day as i didnt went back to WGS .. didnt want to went back .. go back also nothing do .. SOMEONE whom is a 1 secondary 1 junior dont know from which section said if only i go band then she go for the practice -.- and cause i never go .. she didnt .. nice one -.- she even have to compare this compare there with me -.- say buying iphone .. nice one uh .. nice one .. well .. went back to home straight after school .. well,this is the first time i ever went home straight after school when i release at 12 ... usually will go do something but no mood do anything and nothing to do also ...
Tomorrow MIGHT go back WGS ... see first uh ... dont know go back for what also .. lol .. there is nothing awaiting for me there not like people who have girl friends or what there so why bother wasting my time and going back? lol .. see first ba see first ... nowadays really no mood for anything nor have anything to do uh ...
To Someone : Thanks for your sms today uh and thanks for your concern ...
Ending my post ... the 3rd day ... but the results and answer is still the same ... i will wait for you cause i love YOU ...
Posted at 7:24 PM
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Pissed ...
I guess my blog have become some place for me to vent out everything ... i at first totally dont want to post anything de ... cause. i dont know YOU got still read my blog or not but i am no longer your business i guess so anything uh? im surprised that you will dont like me to talk to you like this but i suppose you dont kinda care right? HE is your main concern,your one and only ....
First my aunts commented about my hair -.- zzzz ... i hate my last time de hair please -.- it totally suck .. it is my own hair so let me decide what i want do with it can bo? totally fucked up sia -.- SHITTY MAMA LA -.- ZZZ ...
Second i want buy iphone you also want to care? -.- ask me can use jiu use .. i want buy iphone my problem right? can dont keep come say this say that ma? IT REALLY GETS ON MY NERVES !
Somehow it kinda influence my parents -.- FUCK LA -.- zzzzzzz .... haiz ....
To the SOMEONE whom i sms to just now and said a lot of not nice things though you are kind enough to want to talk to me ... i am sorry ... i dont know you still got read or not but i am sorry ...
With this Fucking PISSED post done .. im off .. bb
Posted at 8:43 PM
EterNity of LovE comes EterNity of PaiN
I have nothing to update for today uh .. got also lazy to update .. who cares ~
Only have some lyrics want to post nia
Little by little, I am falling for YOU
That shiny smile of yours
Why don't we jump out of the endless darkness
Hold my hand
When i first met YOU ...
I remembered that special place
That i adored as a kid
Will YOU dance with me?
Light and darkness, winding road
Are YOU still in love with him?
There are times when i want to look back a bit
But i will fight for you with Love, Courage and Pride in my heart
Little by Little, I am falling for YOU
A piece of hope in this universe
I think everyone wants to gain eternity
Even though i pretend not to notice YOU
Can't YOU tell I'm in love with YOU
Why don't we jump out of the endless darkness
Hold YOUR hand ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ending my post :) I Love You ...
Posted at 3:36 PM
Monday, July 12, 2010
Forgetting Something Call Love While Crying My Heart Out ...
There's NOTHING more to be said :)
Nothing to be said anymore :)
Just as what my title states .. that's what i am going to do :)
Ending my post with a smile :) but tears flowing down my face ...
Posted at 8:11 PM
Happy Birthday Miss Tan Cai Ling My Dearest Biology Teacher
Here is a Birthday or a so called dedication post to My Dearest Biology Teacher Miss Tan Cai Ling :)
Happy Birthday Miss Tan :) Hope you have a great day today and i know your age le :) hahahahaha .. Though you may not be able to see this but i will still dedicate a post for you as a token of appreciation for everything that you have done for me for the past two years that you have taught me bio :)
You are a great teacher to me,you advise me on stuff and still continue to do so even till now :) During the two years you taught me,you did your best to educate me though i sometimes disappoint you and you endured with every nonsense that i gave you .. LOL .. i sound so bad :P haha ..
You made me into the person i am today and for that,i sincerely thank you :) You have been a great teacher and you still are to me .. sorry for disappointing you with my bio grades during o levels .. I appreciate everything that you have done for me :) i will continue to work hard for my studies de :)
Happy Birthday to you :) stay chio always :) stay cute always :) hahaha and hope you have a ncie birthday celebration today my dearest bio teacher :) thank you for everything you have done ..
With that i end my dedication post to you :)
Posted at 2:47 PM
Looking Through The Infinite Archives,Diving Into The Sea Of Memories.
K ~ i promise someone that i will blog VERY VERY long today and here i am during school de break to keep that promise :) LOL and also im smiling ! BUT abit sad and emo uh ... :( YOU never reply my sms AGAIN .... haiz ..... dont know is sms jasper dao forget again or is busy dao cannot reply sms or wad .. but never mind uh .... used to it liao :( haiz .....
today wake up went to school then kena pangseh by friend ~ say want to meet in the end never meet cause he woke up late ~ LOL ! laoya :P haha .. after that went school .. lessons were boring as usual ~ thanks Mr Ho for letting us rest in his class cause of the world cup finals yesterday :) haha and also thanks a lot for helping me write that testimonial .. went for lunch .. ate something that i forgot the name :P lol ~ haha typical me i guess? :) haha ..
After that went for practical ... -.- fish that lecturer la -.- .. pick on me,say i do this wrong do that wrong ! -.- TSK! after that did quite slowly for the experiment for today .. experiment time in polytechnic are so boring compared to the lab times that we spent during secondary school playing around in the lab and joking around .. i miss those times :( those were the best time is my life .. haiz ... how i wish i can retain in secondary school :( haiz ...
After this break of mine,next is OM (Organisation Management) a business module in my course which i didnt know i had till i started the course ~ LOL .. course name was put as Material Life Sciences but its full name is Material Life Science Engineering With Business Management ! ~ LOL ... kena scammed :( SHITTY MAMA ! haha .. sian la :( later OM is do group work again .. confirm is boring dao -.- .. haiz ..
I wont be going back to WGS for some time le i think? go back also nothing do i guess? haha .. see first ba .. got need jiu go back .. no need jiu go home slack :) haha .. dont know what to do now lor .. around 20 minutes before that lame lessons start .. BORING !
To that SOMEONE : long enough le ma? :) later still got 1 more dedication post for my dearest bio teacher Miss Tan :) LOL .. sry for being emo uh even though i promise you i wont be .. i try not to be emo le,k? :) haiz ....
Ending my post with some lyrics :
There's a sudden knock at the door again.
I can smell a case brewing,Welcome to the Windy City.
Tears aren't suited for this town.
Let's find the keyword hidden in the darkness.
The dream that i can't achieve.
Looking through the infinite archives,Diving into the sea of memories.
But with your help it'll be possible,Half & Half.
Two Bodies and Soul into One.
The only thing we need to do is to ride together,Nothing else.
When the world's finest partner team up ... Miracles happen ...
So we can make it.
Just look for double.
Another Song :
What do you carry in your aching arms?
While you smile to deny the bruises on your face ...
The pain can't kill the kindness
Knowing how weak they are is a part of how people grow to be stronger
Now,count up your sins...
Let it weigh on you soul
To protect those you love,go ahead and face it
Go ahead and face it
Nobody's Perfect
Nobody's perfect
That's proof that you're alive !
With this i end this post and coming up next a birthday post for Miss Tan :)
Posted at 2:24 PM
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Posting For YOU ! :)
TskTsk! im finally posting liao after hmmmmm constant reminding from SOMEONE ! happy le ma? i post liao ~ TSK! lol ! k la ~ i wont emo when you never emo,k? :) i will SMILE for YOU ! :) lol .. should post a LONG post if not SOMEONE later see liao too fast finish then say sian again ~ TSK! haha
K,start from today morning .. i woke up .. i ate and went back sleep again ~ I am not a pig for your info :) just too tired ! haha .. after wake up is lunch time so ate lunch ~ hahaha .. then use com .. sms with SOMEONE ~ then went out to basketball ~ i didnt sweat much lor .. haiz .. tsktsk! go exercise like bo exercise de ! wasted my 2 hours ! Not even tired at all ! LOL! last time go basketball come back will here pain there pain everywhere pain de but now dont have :( last time is almost everyday basketball but now is only like once in an eternity? tsk! haha ..
And now im blogging for the sake of SOMEONE ~ ps for blogging so late :) lazy ! ~ lalala ~ haha .. tomorrow is school day AGAIN ! sian ! i dont want :( haha .. SOMEONE just make me jealous cause she using IPHONE ! ARGH ! tsktsk! JEALOUS JEALOUS ! i want ! :( haha .. I WILL GET IT SOON ! tsktsk! haha ..
Come to think of it .. i haven even that homework of mine .. haha :P lazy do liao .. hehe .. don care .. tomorrow then choing :) hahaha .. i am such a guai person :) haha :P
To YOU that SOMEONE : i update for you liao :) haha
Lastly ending with a phrase : Looking Through The Infinite Archives .. Diving Into The Sea Of Memories :)
With this i end for today :) haha ~ smiling for YOU :)
Posted at 8:21 PM
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Smiling Like There Is No Tomorrow For YOU ! :)
Well today is speech day ~ heard that it went well .. Good job band :) Didnt went for speech day BECAUSE SOMEONE never wake me up today ! TSK! haha ~ NEVER MIND! YOU cannot see me and I cannot see YOU nia lor ~~~~~~~~ tsktsk! congratulations to all the prize winner and well done to all Performing Arts Group and Uniform Group ( Npcc,Ncc,Red Cross Youth,Symphonic Band,Chinese Orchestra,Choir and maybe Modern Dance,not sure got modern dance or not ) :)
Went back to sleep at 10 plus after smsing SOMEONE at 9 .. lol .. thought i slept for around 4 to 5 hours but in the end i only slept 2 hours .. LOL .. pathetic :P and of cause im still TIRED !
TSKTSK! SOMEONE bo reply my sms AGAIN ! tsk! baddie ! now dont know is why never reply liao ... maybe is sms jasper dao FORGOT reply me ~ haiz ~~~~~~~~~~~~ :( go emo emo liao ...
Lastly before i end my post :) i will always smile for YOU de :) haha YOU should know who you are :) im now smiling and emoing cause you never reply me :) :( haha .. ending my post with a smile :) haha
Posted at 2:58 PM
Friday, July 9, 2010
Perfection Is Just Seeing Someone Who Is Imperfect Perfectly ...
Another moodless day and i dont know why ... haiz ...
Maybe cause of my morning crs test? argumentative essay write dao so xin ku then submit .. lecturer de first word is you sure you want to submit this? your first line already got something wrong ... jitao took back the paper and cancel out the whole 1st paragraph and submit to her ... -.- ... or is it because of YOU? i dont know, i dont want to care and i dont want to know but can i? completely CANNOT! -.- what a failure of a person am i sia ... haiz ...
After school met up with wj at cwp to watch despicable man, bought tickets for 14 bucks cause 3D but so exp la -.- walao! -.- even watching that show and even the funny scenes where everyone laugh .. i couldnt get myself to laugh ... haiz ...
After that went timezone play maximum tune saw kk there .. played 3 matches but still cannot life up spirit .. after that went home ... now here i am blogging but i nothing say le ..
No matter how imperfect you may be but to me .. you always will be perfect and will never be imperfect to me .. i love you ..
ending my post :) till next time ..
Posted at 5:05 PM
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Sadness Fills My Heart With Every Second Passing
I seriously have no idea why YOU will come to see my blog uh ... isnt it better if you dont? why do you still care? -.- never mind ...
Today went back to WGS .. no words to describe .. only disappointment ba ... i rather saturday never come -.- just hope for a miracle to happen and nothing else ...
Today's post will be a short 1 cause im seriously moodless .. Lastly,YOU (not you) can dont sad le ma? it pains me to see you like this .. its not worth it .. see them together jiu see lor ... also no choice ... haiz .. by all means just reply to that jasper who understand you better :) just continue dont reply mine .. i don care anymore ...
Ending my post with some words : Stay Where You Are ~
Posted at 9:18 PM
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Memories Will Never Be Forgotten But Forever Be Etched In Hearts
Today after school went to meet Mr Ho for his treat :) went to a restaurant and spent over $150 for mi,andy,darren,calvin ~ LOL! Thanks Mr Ho for your treat ! :) will remember the GPA 3 i promised you :) Thanks for your advice also :) Thanks a lot :) I will have to make that decision no matter what and so i will make it soon :) Once again i would like to thank you for everything! :)
After that delicious and full treat ~ went back to wgs to see band de rehearsal .. band arh band .. discipline nowadays are so bad in the band ... PLEASE HAVE SOME URGENCY! if this continues then haiz ... i hope to see better improvements in the future .. dont blame your majors if they punish you because they will only do that when they think you deserve it ...
Juniors from my section,the 4 guys especially .. can you guys please buck up? try and dont be late for practice can? or even worse .. MIA ! do you know how sad,stupid it is to see when i just reach wgs went into the field and see the band march .. i see only 1 member from our section .. while the rest of the section AT LEAST had 5 or more members in it .. please buck up -.- .. its only 3 days till the speech day and this is still what i see .. i seriously agree with mr jerry tai .. haiz .. its time for you guys to think,you guys are already mature enough to think le .. dont make me have to come and find you guys .. be more automatic!
saw the percussion rehearsal with the red cross and npcc .. have to say well done percussion :) good job :) keep it up ! :)
SOMEONE should be very paiseh hor :) hahahahaha ~ never turn properly just now :) you should know who you are :) hahaha ..
Tomorrow is the full dress rehearsal for the speech day .. Jia you to all who are participating ! :) and band i hope to see better improvements tomorrow :)
Lastly,hope YOU have done well for your 'o' levels oral today though i did wish you good luck but a good luck message or word from him is definitely worth a millions or more of good luck sms from me to you ... dont worry too much ba :) have faith in yourself,i know you can do it de :) i dont think you will read my blog let alone this post but i will still post it :)
With this,i end my post for today :)
Posted at 8:43 PM
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Some Feelings Seriously Never Fade .. Haiz ...
k,im back here once again :) seems i have really become a daily blogger le :P wonder if thats a good thing or a bad thing ? :) haha ..
today was quite a pissed day -.- received plenty of calls from unknown numbers that i dont know,picked up le then realise is my brother de wife -.- keep spam wont stop and sound so angry -.- another thing is i received an sms from SOMEONE de friend asking if i like her or not .. (not YOU but SOMEONE else) ask that person who she is,dont want to say neither want to tell me where she got my number from -.- wth? bad day bad day -.-
BUT never mind,tomorrow Mr Ho treating me to lunch to cheer me up :) THANK YOU Mr Ho :) haha .. though you have only been my lecturer for 2 months going 3 months .. you are always kind,caring and good to every single one of us :) haha
Sometimes when im smiling,laughing or seem that im not bothered by anything .. actually i am .. just that i hide the feelings,sadness and pain and everything inside of me so that i wouldnt be asked a lot of questions ... Never judge a book by its cover .. Never judge appearance as everything ..
With this i will end today's post :) byebye :)
P/S : My heart still say I Love You ...
Posted at 6:35 PM
Monday, July 5, 2010
No Longer Racing Etched On The Heart But Now A RX - 7 [FC3S] King ! ~
Went out with mike to buy his iphone today but too bad he couldnt buy it today .. you will get it soon de mike ~ be patient for a little more days ba :) haha .. mine will be here soon also .. hmmm .. today play in arcade while waiting for mike to come .. won some ss rank guy in cwp and got myself the rank RX - 7 [FC3S] King ~ well,it suits me better then Racing Etched On The Heart because my heart no longer feels a thing for now .. its totally feelingless and numb ..
Mike came and i decided to lose on purpose to that ss rank guy and crashed on the last turn cause i already know i confirm win le :P haha .. lose le so can go :) dont want keep mike and his sister ( a chio bu ) wait too long :) WOOHOO~ chio leh ! haha ~ went for lunch with them,ordered a half a chicken herbal .. TOO much for me le :( HAHA ~ after that met jio and he came to find us at junction 8 later on :) mike couldnt buy the iphone cause hes not 18 and so need rely on his cousin to help him :)
Thanks everyone for being by my side lending me a listening ear whenever i need them :) also not forgetting all your kinds words and words of encouragement :) i hope i will be better soon :) Thanks Mike,Jun Leong,Jootat,Sherman,Jeffrey,Wee Jiat,Jio,Maybelle,Jia Jia and lastly Chee Kian my cousin :) Thanks all of you guys and especially my Brothers ! :) you guys are the best!
Lastly,i would like to end with something weird ba :) haha
Stay Where YOU Are to Enjoy The Process ! ~ Feel The Moment when YOU Love To Rise In The Summer Morning ! ~ :) ^^
With this i end my post for today :) seems like im becoming more of a daily blogger le :) haha
Posted at 9:56 PM
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Belated Dedication For My Dearest Sweety Neo Jia Jia
Today went to watch Triple tap with WJ :) nice movie :) LOL,time to get on with serious business :)
Happy Belated Birthday Sweety Jia Jia (17th June 2010)
Heres a dedication i am going to write for you :)
You have been the BEST Sweety ~ Best Friend? Best anymore if you want to add :) haha
Hope YOU will always be happy,smile always uh :) Become taller? haha ~ Stay black :) Hope your results improve and get into the class that you wish to get into at the end of the year :) haha :) Hope you get stronger in basketball and win the competition next year :)
Happy Birthday JiaJia ~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!! ~ :D
Hope you like this dedication :) haha
Posted at 10:06 PM
Saturday, July 3, 2010
4th post today,im crazy
Firstly,Thanks for writing that short segment of your post for me .. i thank you .. i dont have any answers now .. i cannot think straight .. whether or not we remain as friend,is it such a big deal? does it make a difference? you have him and thats all what matters to you i guess ...
Secondly,i wont blame anyone for anything anymore but only blame myself for how things end up and i hope you wont blame yourself either for everything ..
Thirdly,i know this might sound stupid,crazy n idiotic but i will wait :) i will see how dedicated i am :) i will wait till the time i cannot wait anymore ...
Lastly,take care of yourself :) no more sorry from you,ok? sorry about my rudeness and so on in my earlier post,i apologise and last but not least i love you :)
with this i end and i hope it will be the last post of the day :)
Posted at 8:09 PM
Bonds are meant to be severed and Ties are meant to be broken
well i must be insane because this is the 3rd post that i am posting today .. i must be very free or i must have a lot of things to thrash it out .. most likely the 2nd .. well i have bad things to say .. this post is meant to be a bad one well so be it ... well she has chosen him .. well i expected it as much .. i no longer know what to say anymore .. i can blame no one but myself .. blame myself for being so useless not able to win your heart or maybe blame myself for having such a good friend? either way its still my fault,mine and mine alone .. no one to blame except myself .. we live in an imperfect world where things will never go our way so its up to us to make it as perfect as we can like how we want it to be through our very own means ...
i seriously have been thinking about whether to break the bonds and ties that you and i have xq .. being friends require fate,being best friend and best buddy requires even more .. i hope i will come to a conclusion soon .. i hope i will ..
Lastly before i end my post .. i love you jacqueline oh pei ling .. i seriously do .. haiz .. thanks for all the beautiful memories that you have given me and the times you made mi happy .. i thank you .. if really xq is the best for you then so be it .. i hope he can bring you happiness .. last long .. you have my blessing .. though i am really sad when i say all this but i know this is the best for you .. loving someone is not wanting to have that someone for yourself but to let him or her be truly happy .. that is what truly matters and with this i shall end this post ..
Posted at 4:00 PM
Happy Birthday to Samantha Mummy
well here i am writing a dedication post to samantha mummy for her birthday ~ haha .. lol .. later will write another post about something else .. Happy Birthday mummy ~ dont know how you give birth de uh .. confirm is pro because you give birth to like hmmm me,lm,jk and more? LOL dont know how you do that de but hope YZ nt jealous? :P haha .. you have been a hmmmm relatively good mummy to me? LOL i dont know uh but you birthday biggest so let you ~ LOL .. haha .. Wish that you live every single day with a smile on your face .. be happy always :) get good results,become stronger and better in basketball,stay happy,stay chio (ERRRRR) stay cute (ERRRRR) and lastly stay short :) unless you want to get taller ~ HAHAHAHA ( dont have stay black leh :) see i so good )
Let me end this post with a Birthday Song ~
Happy Birthday to YOU ! ~
Happy Birthday to YOU ! ~
Happy Birthday to Samantha Mummy ! ~
Happy Birthday to YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU ! ~ :)
with this i shall end my dedication post to you :) hope you like it :)
Posted at 3:36 PM
All friendships are deceiving and worthless, Love is nothing but pain
this blog may be seem as a dead blog to a lot of people because i never update it for like dont know how many eternities already and so it has become a place for me to vent out my anger,complaints and so on as no one would be able to see it and so it wont offend anyone i guess?
Poly life started,no complaints uh. complain and no complain makes no difference anyway. i do wonder about some things, what you mean by a fair competition? equal chances? definitely not . your heart already go to him le, whats the point of you giving me chance in the first place then? you could have just given him 5 months and dont give me any. if talking about chances, the best chances are only 0.1% to 99.9% worse? dont need me to say also know is 0 to 100. this is only the sixth day and it felt that it has already been a very long time. 4 months plus to go,if your heart is already his then what for give me a chance?! what for give me false hope?! PITY?! i dont need your god damn pityness! I AM NOT THAT DESPERATE NOR WEAK! I AM NOT A BACK UP FOR YOU IF HE CHOOSE TO BE WITH HIS GF AT THE END OF THE 5 MONTHS!
From the way you do things already can see that you decision has already been made up,not only i feel that way,other people also! I AM NOT YOUR TOY! NOT A TOY FOR YOU TO TOY MY FEELINGS WITH! i have been saying for a long time asking you not to eat any cold stuffs when you are having your stomach pain but do you listen? NO YOU DONT! but when he asked you to not eat,you promised him that you wouldnt eat le. which damn fucking part of this is fair?! U TELL ME! if you have already made up your decision you can just tell me and by all means take back the chance you give me because i dont give a damn care about it anymore! though i really treasured this chance,haiz ... so if you have truly make up your decision le ... just tell me and stop wasting my precious time letting me think that there is hope when there is truly NO hope at all ! all the time that i spent with you were all happy times .. haiz .. i will remember them all de ...
as for YOU .. i seriously dont understand you anymore .. i dont know what in the world are you thinking anymore .. i treat you as my best friend,best buddy and this is what i got? forget it then ... i seriously feel like a fool,an idiot ... guess i really am 1 .. you broke up with her saying that you no longer have feelings for her and then left her heart broken .. then now when you have got yourself a gf le .. you asked her for another chance for her to give you time for you to go back to her ... what is this sia? you know that i like her and you still did this .. you said you no longer had feelings for her and yet you did this? you even got yourself a gf le and you still did this? ask yourself seriously ... are you human? by doing this,either 1 or both of them will be hurt by your actions,do you know that? is it fun toying with girls de feelings? i seriously dont understand you anymore,no longer understand you ... worst of all,she gave you chance,gave both of us 5 months .. i seriously have nothing to say .. so you are going to break with your current gf by the 5 months time and go back to her? haiz ... i really dont want to because of this lose the 4 years going to 5 years worth of friendship that we had but if worse come to worse ... then no choice ba ...
what my mum say is really right ... friends are useless because you dont know when they will stab you in the back or betray you .. you only can rely on yourself and no one else ... thanks mum .. i have learnt the lesson the hard way ...
by the end of the 5 months or if you have already made up your choice to be with him then i will give u both my blessing but i have 1 sentence to give to you and it is DONT COME CRYING TO ME WHEN HE DUMP YOU AGAIN BECAUSE I DONT GIVE A DAMN !
EterNity of LovE comes EterNity of PaiN
LASTLY,Happy Birthday Samantha MUMMY! stay happy always,stay chio always,stay cute always AND lastly ~ stay BLACK always :) hahaha,happy birthday!
with this i shall end my post .. a long one to be exact till next time .. its been great thrashing all this stuffs out off my chest because its quite hard for me to be relaxed because of all this stuffs .. bb :)
Posted at 10:02 AM